THE VEIN THAT RUNS INSIDE

trying to breathe first,
i come to my memories second
fearing still someone,
i'll grow hideously out of this closet.

they say i'm wrong,but they didn't hear
i'm pushed to the edge again,but i just steer.....
.....more so ahead to take it all
.... more so close to kiss my soul
AND BREAK,
everything else that surrounds me in my past
everyway i tread is where the souls blast
blood is on my face
and my guilt runs in my vein
still i'm a hero who got frozen in this pain....but i walk on now even..

thoughts that came to my mind would always be wrong.
but not now cause so much is piled on my soul.
faces pretend to smile at me,i dare to tear them apart.
my heart gives way and all is left is a fossilised guy.....
But then i take on my gear,i'm a fire fighter now.
AND DIE,
all you naturals,give way to the predictable veils,
illusion is what you are living in
see me in two halves and slow down angels.....
your GOD won't be able to heal me,HE gave me all hope
But they tricked me to work and ooze out my blood.
my state , my pain is reborn
come rejoice on my corpse,
breathe out life,see it perish,feel the angst
and all i feel is the pain.........
......of the vein that runs inside